Eight years ago, I read "The Power of Now" by Eckart Tolle, and thought, "Hmmm, interesting concept". Eight months ago, I read "Awakening to your Life's Purpose" and haven't put it down since. I have read parts of the book or listened to a webcast every single day since. I have given four copies to friends and family--I've even gone back and re-listened to the Power of Now on tape (yes, tape!)
Even with all of this reading and listening, I have had a tough time developing my Spiritual Muscle. I am in the midst of crisis, and fully intent on using it as an opening to enlightenment. But the flashes of insight are so brief, and my mind chatter(ego)so incredibly strong, I am finally beginning to understand that I am in for a lifelong practice, rather than a miracle.
This week, I realized how my last post reflects exactly how our ego separates us from our true selves. I even did it while immersed in seeking inner peace. I wrote "I love myself". Isn't that amazing? I separated myself in two, the way we all tend to, unconsciously. If I just WAS myself, there would actually be no need for "loving myself" because I would just be whole and complete and present in each moment, without the separation.
Wild ideas, I know--yet they resonate completely.
Even with all of this reading and listening, I have had a tough time developing my Spiritual Muscle. I am in the midst of crisis, and fully intent on using it as an opening to enlightenment. But the flashes of insight are so brief, and my mind chatter(ego)so incredibly strong, I am finally beginning to understand that I am in for a lifelong practice, rather than a miracle.
This week, I realized how my last post reflects exactly how our ego separates us from our true selves. I even did it while immersed in seeking inner peace. I wrote "I love myself". Isn't that amazing? I separated myself in two, the way we all tend to, unconsciously. If I just WAS myself, there would actually be no need for "loving myself" because I would just be whole and complete and present in each moment, without the separation.
Wild ideas, I know--yet they resonate completely.
posted by Ask Me Anything at Saturday, September 06, 2008
10 Comments:
Wow - powerful stuff. Thanks for this - my latest post also deals with my ego and how I tend to compartmentalize myself. Guess I need to check this book out!
You, are IT ON A STICK - all of you. I think, perhaps, we are all awakened/enlightened, but tend to fall asleep at the wheel from time to time. What do you think?
You are, and you aren't, the same person I met 13 years ago. And that is a compliment.
that is quite an interesting insight. there IS such a disparity between the I and me and myself and all those pronouns. full conversations go on between them in my head!
Like the part about the spiritual walk being a lifelong practice. So true.
Hi Terry, thinking of you! xox
Sounds like a trip to Barnes & Nobel for me this weekend. My ego needs some taming!
A life long practice, one moment at a time.
Love.
Wishing you peace and clarity during this time of crisis. These are the times when the biggest gifts are to be found. I hope you'll share here when you find yours.
Hmm, I have to admit that I never quite finished that book. I bought it, read some of it, and (as often happens...), got distracted. Thanks as usual for your honesty... I'm going to get out my book now.
A life LONG process.LONG being the key word for me.
And brilliant insight into how we split ourselves into with awareness.
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